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11/26/2007
Something
Most people see a positive home pregnancy test and are immediately able to announce with confidence, "We're having a baby." (Damned if they're not usually right.) An infertile person, especially one with any kind of loss under her belt, looks at that second pink line and thinks, Well. Huh. We seem to be having a...something.
It's not even binary: baby or none. It's so much more complicated. At this point the range of outcomes feels infinitely broad, from the frustrating to the heartbreaking to the ridiculously sublime, any of which stay with us for quite some time to come.
I don't know what my three positive tests thus far — 10, 11, and 12 days past ovulation — will ultimately mean. I don't assume they necessarily mean a baby. But curiously, given my history, neither do I particularly fear they won't.
From here, anything could happen. For now, we are having a something, and absent any indications to the contrary, I am willing — excited! — to believe it might be something really great.
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Oh, Julie...
All good thoughts, prayers and whatevers to you and your family.
AND- a most happy third birthday to Charlie!!
Best-
Deb
Crossing my fingers and hoping 'a line is a line' in this case.
Yay! NBHHY.
horray!
I will return the favor:
Wellllllllllllllity wellllllllll welll welll well well well.
I am on the edge of my seat.
(And congratulations! Fellow **** buddy?!?! really?!!!! that would be so. cool.)
That is just awesome. Congratulations.
Eeeeee! Good luck! I'm crossing my fingers, toes, and eyes for you (which is making typing very difficult).
Jesus Gay you're pregnant! Hooray times a million! Regardless of how this ends up - though obviously we hope for the best - congratulations are in order because any way you shake it, this is a reason to be hopeful and happy. :D
Oh, how I very much hope it's something great.
yay!!! I remember finding your blog before you had Charlie and am glad that I can say I've been around here that long..but barely comment as your post almost always leave me speechless. Just celebrated our middle childs 3rd birthday as well. Cant believe it's been 3 years. seems just like yesterday when I was coming here a zillion times a day just to see what was going on...now here I am again doing the same! sending up some prayers for you and your family!
WOW, Julie! Oh my god!
fingers crossed for you from the day you started this cycle to the day your baby grows up and healthy!
Congrats on the lines!
Bea
Long time lurker here - crossing all my appendages for you!
Another lurker de-lurking to say: wonderful.
I've been wondering if you've been getting into your second bathroom stash yet!
Congratulations!!!!!!
I'm sending my very best wishes your way.
Oh. Oh. Oh.
OMG!OMG!OMG!
Thank you for sharing this early news!
Wheee! NBHHY!
OMG! I've been reading your blog for years, but never comment because I don't know what to say. But now I want to say OMG CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NBHHY
THIS FREAKIN ROCKS!!!!!
Squeeeeeeeeeeeee! :) I'm a lurker, and have been checking in on you and hoping. I understand cautious optimism, and am rooting for you!
Congratulations! Fingers crossed for you!!
Sooo....I guess you found God, then?
Here's hopin' for you guys. No way to interpret this but as most excellent news.
Oh, oh, oh! Stick, egg, stick. I am tapping my feet under the table for you...
Wow, I'm so excited for you!
Something wicked COOL this way comes! Stick [around], egg!
And a very happy 3rd birthday to Master Charlie...when the heck did *that* happen??
Yay!!!
wow - you're having...a something! best wishes from here on in....
Does that mean you'll call this one Gatsby? Or are you going to stick with the Batman theme and go with Robin?
Inquiring minds want to know!!!
Very excited for you. :)
coming out or lurking to say congrats on your something!!! :D Ace to read such great news :)
yay
NBHHY
SQUEEEEEEEEEEE!
Wow, that's so great. Here's to those sticky eggs.
WOOOOOOOO-HOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
I, too, hope this is a really great something.
Well, I'll be darned. This makes me very happy and weepy.
NBHHY. That's all I'm saying....
I am so excited for your something!!!!
Here's to a sticky something!!
Keeping fingers and toes crossed that this something is THE something you've been waiting for. So exciting!
Squee! And yes, I know what you mean about a something, but it's a nice start, isn't it?
Horray! So happy for you.
HO. LEE. FUCK.
Really? Really???
(doing little dance)
Julie got knocked up, Julie got knocked up....
Have I been checking your blog twice a day... ummm, maybe...
May you get a little (more) pregnant for every day until you become very definitely pregnant to then holy-crap-this-3rd-trimester-crap-sucks pregnant.
Bewdy
Delurking to say congrats! I'm crossing all my bits that your "something" becomes another Batman or even a little Batgirl!
Oh. Heck. Yes. Beta tomorrow (or is it Wednesday? Can't think...too happy for you to think clearly). :)
Well, damn it, that IS something. And something you haven't done for a while. So, then. Cool.
Onward to a new adventure!
JULIE JULIE JULIE!!
Congratulations!!!!!
I hope everything goes beautifully for you!
I'm doing that thing where you cross your first finger and your middle finger for good luck, AND your ring finger and pinky finger too, for double good luck - on BOTH hands.